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careless me, i forgot to post the link to my johari window. hehehe. so here it is.

what do you think of me now?

reading jenny's recent entry about her johari's window, i remembered that i created one for myself too same time as she did.

two years since, many things came about. people...places...events...

i got inspired so i'm also reposting this. i'm hoping to obtain new responses from old & new friends/acquaintances. just to compare how they see me now from two years back.

Arena (known to self and others) dependable, logical, mature, sentimental, trustworthy	Blind Spot (known only to others) adaptable, calm, caring, confident, friendly, giving, helpful, idealistic, independent, intelligent, kind, loving, modest, organised, patient, quiet, reflective, relaxed, responsive, self-conscious, sensible, shy, warm, wise, witty
Façade (known only to self) observant	Unknown (known to nobody) able, accepting, bold, brave, cheerful, clever, complex, dignified, energetic, extroverted, happy, ingenious, introverted, knowledgeable, nervous, powerful, proud, religious, searching, self-assertive, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense

All Percentages

able (0%) accepting (0%) adaptable (8%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (25%) caring (33%) cheerful (0%) clever (0%) complex (0%) confident (8%) dependable (25%) dignified (0%) energetic (0%) extroverted (0%) friendly (25%) giving (25%) happy (0%) helpful (8%) idealistic (16%) independent (33%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (25%) introverted (0%) kind (16%) knowledgeable (0%) logical (16%) loving (8%) mature (25%) modest (25%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (16%) patient (8%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (41%) reflective (8%) relaxed (8%) religious (0%) responsive (8%) searching (0%) self-assertive (0%) self-conscious (8%) sensible (8%) sentimental (8%) shy (41%) silly (0%) spontaneous (0%) sympathetic (0%) tense (0%) trustworthy (33%) warm (16%) wise (8%) witty (25%)

my thoughts on pain

there are moments we just wish that the journey of life is smooth. no curves or rough roads to travel. then again, without these difficulties, how can we become stronger & better? by going through hardships, we learn to appreciate simple things more. all these trials are meant to happen to teach us something. a lesson we otherwise wouldn't learn if we were forever sheltered in a perfect life.

i told my friend jenny once, "why do we need to feel all these pain? why can't we just always live a happy life?" she told me, "if we don't feel pain, how can we feel we're alive?"

daddy's girl

we've never been the expressive kind of family. we don't give hugs or kisses when we leave or come home, not even during special occasions. we love, care & support each other in silence, particularly my dad. he's the type who's reserved but you sense the deep concern. he's a wise man who rarely speaks, so when he does we really listen.

being the eldest of 4 girls, i think i'm more of my mom's girl than my dad's. i feel that amongst us, my 2nd sibling or my youngest is closest to my dad. that's why i really value the few times that my dad shows his affection towards me.

this morning, while i was having breakfast, he came to me with a tube of antibiotic. he told me to apply it to my wound. (fyi: i just had a big wart removed from my middle finger in my left hand)

i cherish these occasional moments, they transport me to a state of bliss.

never too late

i've been meaning to write this entry for a while now but due to the crazy schedule last week (dinners, reunions, weddings, etc...) and because of fear that i will not be able to adequately describe how i felt and aptly thank the people involved, i kept on putting this off.

today, exactly 1 week since my 26th, my schedule is a lot better. i still don't know the best way how & i still don't think any words i say will be sufficient to express my feelings & my appreciation. so i'll just do it the way i know how...i'd like to simply say THANKS!

THANKS to my Bicol friends, my HS friends, my college friends, my Shanghai friends and my family.:)

thank you for taking time off from all your busy schedules & travelling all the way to Makati on a week day to spend my special day with me. you made my day complete & unforgettable. you made my 26th my best birthday so far.

most importantly, i'd like to say thank you to 2 important persons i treasure in my life who made this possible. they were responsible for organizing this. THANK YOU TIFF & ECAT!!! I FEEL SO BLESSED & LUCKY THAT I HAVE MET YOU BOTH & HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE.:)

no hair no hair

i admit. there's something about men with shaved heads that makes me take the second look. tall, lean men... goatie... some tattoos are even fine. in short, i don't dig the "good guy/clean look" that much. (my close friends even tease me sometimes that maybe my type is someone who's like basura.)

take for example derek ramsey. major hotness!!! bring him in and maybe you'll need to bring the firemen & firetruck along.:P that's why i can't help but react to his latest billboard for an apparel brand along cubao-edsa southbound. what's up with him growing his hair?

BERdays

September, October, November, December...

it's the first day of the -ber months. when this time of the year comes around, i begin to feel the holiday spirit. it's time to start saving, thinking and maybe buying of gifts. knowing myself too well though, i'm pretty sure i'll be part of the crowd, rushing on the last few days before Christmas. i'm a crammer, which i admittedly am not really proud of.

time to bring out the boxes of balls & tree again! (one of those few traditions i start early enough:P)

on an unrelated note: yesterday, we had to give up one of our maids who's been with us for quite awhile. surprisingly i kind of miss her. on the outside, i might seem tough & nonchalant but i think i'm the type who really gets easily attached. this maid of ours is crazy with a security guard from a bank near our house whom unfortunately is already married & with children. since this maid is still young, i think about 19, we had to ask her dad to come from the province & bring her back home. as much as we wanted her to stay with us, we didn't want anything bad to happen to her. we had to protect her.